This girl is slightly addicted!! lol.
Interestingly, I’ve gone without coffee for at least 21 days and it wasn’t that bad. Praise the Lord.
But this time around, it’s different. I’m in the middle of a week-long fast that started this past Monday (Daniel Fast) and as sad as it may sound, I realized just how much I had made coffee an integral part of my day—especially the mornings. It dawned on me that I associate waking up with getting the opportunity to drink coffee. That thought gets me excited. My roommate and I would often joke around about how we couldn’t wait to wake up and drink coffee the next morning—oh and of course because we had the opportunity to live yet another day;-)
The fact that I haven’t been able to do that this week opened my eyes to how addicted to coffee I’ve become.
Now, don’t get me wrong—I’m not over here shaking and having mental break downs because I haven’t drunk coffee. If that ever happens—ummm…call HELP!
But I will admit, I found that I wasn’t as enthused about the mornings as I normally am when I know that I can have a nice brewed cup of coffee. My mood in the mornings have been blah.
I found myself getting frustrated whenever I would open the fridge and see that hazelnut creamer (which I LOVE) just sitting there staring at me like “dude…when are you going to use me??” lol. Forget smelling coffee when I would come into the office—it’s not like I could turn off my senses. And of course I would have to pass by Starbucks every morning and turn the other way. SMH.
Funny thing is–this fast is not just from coffee. It’s from meats, carbs, and sweets. But I’m struggling the most from not being able to drink coffee! SMH #somethingiswrong
Now, I know that it’s psychological for me. There is something warming and comforting about coffee when I smell it brewing. It wakes me up. It gets me excited to start the day. And to be quite honest, I had become so used to having coffee while doing my devotional time , that without the coffee, it messes me up O_o. So sad!
I don’t know what to make of this. I don’t know if I would consider myself someone who just really enjoys coffee or if I’m someone who needs help.
Either way, I REALLY look forward to MONDAY:-)
BTW—found this cute little list of how you know you’re addicted to coffee. Based on this, I would say—almost there!
Signs of Coffee Addiction:
- Your day starts with coffee. (TRUE)
- You don’t remember what life before coffee was like. (TRUE)
- You secretly don’t see the point of tea. (NOT TRUE—I LOVE ETHIOPIAN TEA;-)
- You don’t take cream in your coffee because it leaves less room for the coffee. ( I ACTUALLY NEED CREAM)
- You would marry coffee, if coffee were a person.(TRUE )
- You make it a rule to have coffee before any important meeting. (TRUE)
- Most of the times your blood pressure is probably through the roof. (NOT TRUE)
- Your body is 80% coffee, 20% thinking about how to get more coffee. (TRUE)
- You don’t believe in wasting coffee. (TRUE)
- You once tried to give up coffee and replaced caffeine with crying spontaneously. (HAHA ALMOST TRUE)
Please don’t judge me;-) And just to let you know, this FAST is productive! He’s teaching me A LOT about myself lol!